Began physical therapy at Dr. Antolak's request. Two therapists at MAPS. Will involve more ligament distraction, pelvic floor massage, strain-counterstrain, and a couple of other things I can't recall right now.

Pain is awful. Stress related to it is sometimes worse. Sometimes I manage the pain well...other times it (and its relentless persistence - wait, is that redundant?) makes me so angry I am just a bitch. I have a therapist - I am a therapist - and I just can't make this be different. I often can do better than I am right now, but sometimes I just can't hold it together. I wish it didn't hurt my family. I wish I didn't hurt my family with it. I feel like shit.

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